A simple life would be good =)

People dreamed of living in mansions, swimming in their very own pools with a handful of maids always at their service. That is the dream of many and the exact materialization of few. For me, nah, just a simple life would do. =)

Where i am now, is what i feel most comfortable with now. Not too comfortable, but it's enough to keep me content for the moment. Having a CGPA of 4.41, it just seemed too hard for me to pit myself against the colossus barrier barring me from a first-class honor. Identically, it is numerically impossible to bring me down any lower than where i am now, a second-class upper honor. Thinking back, i came into university with horrible grades and intended to just get myself further with no high hopes. But here i am now, an ex-first-class-honor student, happily looking at what i have in life. A second upper should suffice for anything. Just about anything. There are so many people fighting like hell to just get a smell of second-class-lower, while some are struggling endlessly to reach the next level (second class upper). I must say i'm blessed. Thanks to my mum who did not stop me from going university. She gave me the choice to either start working or go university. I'm glad i was born with farsight and ambition, which lands me where i am now.

Financially, it was never good for me since i was born. I was put into a poor family and things did not change even till now. Being single parent did not help with money matters. The monthly house instalments are burden beasts. That is why i tried all means to earn money. Buy-and-sell (power ranger stickers, can you believe it? loL~!), soccer betting, book-keeping (bookieeee, a failed one) and many other more. Nothing worked out, but luckily for me, i'm a thrifty guy. By that, i don't mean i'm selfish. In fact, there is quite a sum of money that i have lent out to my friends and never got them back. There are times when i treat my friends to things too. All these come from the spare money i usually saved by going for the cheaper stuffs, be it clothings or food. Sometimes it makes me wonder, am i spending more on others than on myself? loL~!!! Nevertheless, the hunt for money never cease. In recent times, i was introduced to stock. Hell of a ride i must say. When i first played with the stock, i was already burned within a week. My SG$7k was reduced to a worth of around SG$5k. The horror keeps continuing and eventually i hit a whooping SG$3.3k. That is when i decided it's time to let go of the losses and start anew. Throughout this chain of events, i even borrowed $400 from my mum. She knew what happened, but did not say much. Normally, she would nag non-stop at me for small things, but this time, she did not. I did not know why, even now, but i feel that she had faith in me. With the SG$3.3k, it was an enduring period for me. There were days where i spent $0, scraping whatever food i can find in the room. Normal days would only allow me a meal not more than $2.50, supposedly lasting for the whole day. This lasted for at least 2 weeks. Somehow, my mum noticed my loss in weight and put 2 $50 notes into my wallet. Right now, i'm in a slight positive after recovering my losses. Thanks to my mum once again for being so supportive. =)

As for love... nothing much to talk about, still looking around. Money speaks alot in most cases, not because the girl is materialistic or what, but there are bound to be expenses during a date. Flowers, gifts, meals, wooosh~ Sometimes i wonder, should i just postpone the process of looking for one? Should i wait till i achieve a stable income? (which is one year later hooray!!!) I wonder. When i'm out in the working society, isn't it harder for me to find the girl of my liking... Sigh. When there are pros, there are bound to be cons. Nothing is perfect hur? =)

I N S O M N I A

All thanks to chee wee for the sleepless night. Due credits have to be given to him for landing me in my current state.

Being a gemini, or rather a thinker that i am, it's not easy for me to just fall asleep all of a sudden. Unless i am dead beat, there is virtually NIL chance that i will knock out as soon as my head touches the pillow. There is always so much to think about, from things of great importance to trivial matters. Just about everything. The dreadful part of it is that, sometimes, fond memories that come with pain (ironic huh? It takes a wise person to figure that out. Not.) do flood my mind. And that is why i am not a great fan of memories, especially good ones. Often, the best memories you have are those that will bring you regret and agony when you reminisce. What happened in the past should be buried, at least that's what i hoped for. Well... things hardly go our way huh. Whatever.

Lying on the concrete floor, i tried all i could, without physically, mentally and verbally abusing myself, to get into sleeping mode. Push ups. Sit ups. I would even do some star jumps if not for my roomies who were sleeping soundly. Changing into every positions i can think of... i mean sleeping positions mind you, nothing helped. And not surprising, writing this piece of entry here is my futile attempt to sap my energy away. Since there is nothing i can do to fall asleep, i guessed i would have to skip one night of sleep and make it up tomorrow by sleeping slightly earlier. So... what should i do now...? Damn i'm bored. All alone here. If only there is someone i can call and talk to during this wee hour. Heh, fat hope. Hmmm... time for more bejeweled i guess.