Genkai

Feeling really tired now. I wonder if its because due to the lack of sleep or something else...? I'm feeling like i'm living in the shadow of another person, which is totally unbearable. Why do i have to live up to the expectations set by others? I'm me myself. Uniquely me. For every good trait i have, there is a bad one. But is it not the case for everyone? Neglecting the positive while attacking the negative is one of the most efficient way to shut a person down. Flowers bloom under the most natural and carefree conditions, while those constantly tortured by the harsh environment will lose their capabilities and eventually wither. I want to be myself, the one who is always brimming with confidence, not easily shaken with the ability to enjoy and have a good laugh more than anyone else. Insecurity is really the worst emotional weapon on Earth. I'm suffering the aftereffect already. When my confidence hits rock bottom, things are bound to change, in a major way. At that point of time, a decision will be made, regardless of my willingness to make one. That is when my confidence will be rebuilt and peak after a period of time. I'm sure this will be the outcome, as i am already foreseeing that moment which will take place in the near future.