Women and Me

ooo, finally got the time to write about this liao. hm... i realised an interesting thing. maybe to me its interesting, to anyone of you all its boring, but hey, this is my blog!!! lOl. ok, just kidding. i realised something interesting. argh, i said it twice. i found out that i am quite dependent on female companions. isn't that interesting? ok, i am starting to irk you i supposed. i'll try not to, lOl. i like communicating, though i am not really good @ that. from every schooling experiences, i have a few female frens who are always very helpful to me. be it pri sch, sec sch, jc 1st 3 months, or jc. i have always been showered with care and concern from my female frens. its weird though... they always treated me specially. so i started to think that i have a special ability. of cos, its an imaginary special ability, but i really can't find anything to describe it. if you are thinking i am boasting or bullshiting... please don't. i am just sharing. but the problem is... i am always too afraid to accept too much 'care and concern' from girls. yea, although i have alot of guts in doing all the things people do not dare to, but when facing girls, the guts seem to shrink into the blackhole. girl-shy. some ppl will think i like acting cool in front of girl, but hell no, i am just shy. maybe because of my shyness, girls tend to be more attracted to helping me out. but i did not realli tell them my appreciation for them... thats what i regretted. every educational level ends mean an end to my relationship with my school friends. not everyone, but close to 90%. i dunno why too. i hardly have the habit of doing catch-up with friends. eventually, everyone forgets me and by the time i want to talk to them, we are filled with estrangement. i hate that. i hate myself for that. i have learned that, if you are appreciative of someone, make it known to her, even if it will cause a misunderstanding. for all the girls who showed extra attention to me... a big thank you to you all. i really miss you all very much and sincerely hope the best for you all! without the extra care and concern you all gave me, i won't be the same me. i have to owe my guts and confidence to everyone who once helped me.