thoughts of the night
recently, i have alot of free time due to the leaves and off i am taking which signifies the end of my NSF life is nearing. 2yrs of waiting for this moment, but it only took 2 weeks to realise it isn't all that great. without the pink IC, there is basically no legit job i can take. hence i am looking for students to give tuitions to, but to no avail till now. i am living my days using countdown. i have played very little games since entering national services, and now, i have lost interest in them too. i am not sure if thats true, or just because the quality and gameplay of the games now are too shallow. if anyone still remember final fantasy 7, thats what i call a good game. graphic isn't a problem, the touching and emotional storyline is what makes it captivating.
having so much time, thoughts have flooded my mind whenever i am busy doing nothing. memories... fond memories came flowing in. during schooling terms, i have alot of interactions with people. people i like, people i dislike, all of them. it has never come across my mind that, one day, i might be deprived of this kind of previlege. i have lost contact with most people since entering national service. at the start, it does not affect me much. but as time goes on, it acts like a cancer, hiding somewhere in your body, only erupting after much time have passed. lonliness starts to fill my heart. to all, i might be very cheerful, teasing people whenever i could. sacarsm isn't something not known to all that met me. i did what i did to make an effect to lighten up everyone's day. it might not be funny sometimes, but i put in alot of effort to try. and when everything ends, at the end of the day, when i am alone at home, sometimes i feel so depressed. not those severe depression case, but a case of sadness. trying to bring happiness to others, has anyone given a thought to me?
i really missed the times when i was with my friends during schools... KBPS, ZHSS, YJC, NYJC... some of them are particularly good to me... and it only deepen my misses for them... but i also do realise that, what ever happen in the past, might not happen again due to the everchanging society... a girl might be very nice and helpful to me in the past... now she only treats me normally and is oblivious to my existence... no matter how hard i try... it will never go back to how it was in the past... memories... and this will teach me a lesson. no matter what happened, at the end of the day, look back and cherish the people around you. make it known to them the next day, as you will not know when the changes will be taking place...
having so much time, thoughts have flooded my mind whenever i am busy doing nothing. memories... fond memories came flowing in. during schooling terms, i have alot of interactions with people. people i like, people i dislike, all of them. it has never come across my mind that, one day, i might be deprived of this kind of previlege. i have lost contact with most people since entering national service. at the start, it does not affect me much. but as time goes on, it acts like a cancer, hiding somewhere in your body, only erupting after much time have passed. lonliness starts to fill my heart. to all, i might be very cheerful, teasing people whenever i could. sacarsm isn't something not known to all that met me. i did what i did to make an effect to lighten up everyone's day. it might not be funny sometimes, but i put in alot of effort to try. and when everything ends, at the end of the day, when i am alone at home, sometimes i feel so depressed. not those severe depression case, but a case of sadness. trying to bring happiness to others, has anyone given a thought to me?
i really missed the times when i was with my friends during schools... KBPS, ZHSS, YJC, NYJC... some of them are particularly good to me... and it only deepen my misses for them... but i also do realise that, what ever happen in the past, might not happen again due to the everchanging society... a girl might be very nice and helpful to me in the past... now she only treats me normally and is oblivious to my existence... no matter how hard i try... it will never go back to how it was in the past... memories... and this will teach me a lesson. no matter what happened, at the end of the day, look back and cherish the people around you. make it known to them the next day, as you will not know when the changes will be taking place...
posted by -=]-snoopy-[=- at 9:47 PM
1 Comments:
friendship doesnt mean only sharing of happiness.. sometimes we can share with our frds our unhappiness too. a gd frd will be willing to be a good listener and reassure u.
drifing away from a friendship is really a sad case... when u found out u have lost a friendship due to not talking to each other for many wks and u thought that person is busy... then found out that person is actually ignoring u.... for dunno wat reasons.. and to get it back is too late... erm.. well... hope u are on gd terms with every frd of yours... gd luck in sharing unhappiness with them.. take care... ^^;
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