Goodbye Singapore?
As usual, i went for the CPE184 lecture this morning. Habitually, i bought the $2 breakfast from MacDonald. Tea and a burger. In fact, i was more interested in the tea than the burger. But oh well, since it can be treated as a decent breakfast with the addition of another $1.50 (in my mind, tea should only cost 50 cents, hence the $1.50), i bought it anyway.
Was late by approximately 10 minutes, but it was of no issue since the lecturer isn't convincing to begin with. After settling down beside Boon Cheng, i started to make my tea. Just then, he asked me something which unsettled me (ironical har). GIP. Yup. An oversea trip to work instead of having an IA(industrial attachment) in the local industry. The question was not out of the blue, as i had previously in mind that i might desire the experience to roam the outside world.
That was when i did not have any burden or concern. It is changes that made time meaningful. That mindset has since changed. If you were to ask me now, i would say i am not without worries. Family wise, in my current status, there shouldn't even be a problem. I am living as if i am detached from my home already. I still do go home, but it isn't something that will sway my decision. Friends, we can still communicate with each other online and all sorts of ways. What is left is the emptiness in the heart. 2 years before i am out of this "wonderful" place. Academically wise, university is a crap place where your grades mean nothing more than a professor's paycheck. Socially wise, one might not have a chance to meet as many people outside in the working society. Most importantly, the one in your life might not appear for a 2nd time. There are so many times where you think that someone is the one, but most often it never really materialize to allow you to judge whether he/she is the right one. Barriers are set up and we will never know if the ones we have in mind are the right ones for each other until the other party decided to fizzle the barrier.
Right now, i seem to have someone in mind, but it has been slowly fading away as the barrier never cease to grow stronger. Does perseverance really works? Changes grow with time, but does time really has the capability to change a person's heart? If only i had the answers to these questions, i will not be having a split headache resulting from the dilemma i am having now... I am hoping for something that will allow me to make my stand before this Friday... 2 days before the interview... wow...
Was late by approximately 10 minutes, but it was of no issue since the lecturer isn't convincing to begin with. After settling down beside Boon Cheng, i started to make my tea. Just then, he asked me something which unsettled me (ironical har). GIP. Yup. An oversea trip to work instead of having an IA(industrial attachment) in the local industry. The question was not out of the blue, as i had previously in mind that i might desire the experience to roam the outside world.
That was when i did not have any burden or concern. It is changes that made time meaningful. That mindset has since changed. If you were to ask me now, i would say i am not without worries. Family wise, in my current status, there shouldn't even be a problem. I am living as if i am detached from my home already. I still do go home, but it isn't something that will sway my decision. Friends, we can still communicate with each other online and all sorts of ways. What is left is the emptiness in the heart. 2 years before i am out of this "wonderful" place. Academically wise, university is a crap place where your grades mean nothing more than a professor's paycheck. Socially wise, one might not have a chance to meet as many people outside in the working society. Most importantly, the one in your life might not appear for a 2nd time. There are so many times where you think that someone is the one, but most often it never really materialize to allow you to judge whether he/she is the right one. Barriers are set up and we will never know if the ones we have in mind are the right ones for each other until the other party decided to fizzle the barrier.
Right now, i seem to have someone in mind, but it has been slowly fading away as the barrier never cease to grow stronger. Does perseverance really works? Changes grow with time, but does time really has the capability to change a person's heart? If only i had the answers to these questions, i will not be having a split headache resulting from the dilemma i am having now... I am hoping for something that will allow me to make my stand before this Friday... 2 days before the interview... wow...
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