now and then?
it has been a long time since i slept with my legs curled up to my chest. it has been a habit since young. but since 2-3 years ago, i stopped doing that. until yesterday night, i curled my legs up to my chest uncontrollably while sleeping. it was an indication of my thoughts of the past.
just before i went to bed yesterday, i browsed through my email inbox after a thorough bath. i clicked on the link 'Last'. the first email i have in my inbox was 4 years back. 2002... how time flies. opening those emails one by one, memories flowed into my mind. 4 years back, sending emails was an 'in' thing. or rather, a way commonly used to express your feelings. its was the era of 'IRC' too. 'Internet Relay Chat'.
i could still remember the excitement when recieving an email at that time. almost everyday, there will be at least a new mail in the inbox. what did my friends sent me? or did my crush sent me an email? those were the thoughts. everyday after school, switching on the computer and connecting to 'IRC' was an indispensable routine. you never know who would be online and the suspense of figuring out who was online was always there. would my best pals be online, or better yet, my crush waiting in the chatroom? its full of possibilities and the suspense never runs out. you could talk with a bunch of peoples, or chose to open a new channel and ask a few friends in for a more private discussion. a double click on a name could bring you to a one-on-one chat for personal conversation.
time has changed. almost everything has changed, claiming to be following up to the ever-changing society. changes are presumably good, if not why the changes? but are they really good, or are they just some self-proclaimed 'good' changes that is widely recognised by everyone? everyday, changes are made in all aspects of life. the majority would blindly accept the changes and abandon the old ways, making them obsolete. there would not have been enough time for the majority to consider the usefulness and the purpose of the changes. this is what is called 'trend'. one person do it, 10 people followed blindly, another 100 were influenced and it goes on like a chain letter. people are being taught to adapt to changes readily. but did they not realise, changes should only be made for the better?
emails... does anyone use emails to express their feelings towards other anymore? i doubt so. from the early letter writing, to electronic mailing, to blog. when Email was introduced, letter writing was obsoleted. now, people have a new way of expressing themselves. blogs. but is it as effective as emails? NO. i can almost give a confident answer as fast as you can say 'BLOG'. yes, technologies allow us to communicate in a more convenient way. blog is a very efficient way to express your feelings to the masses. but, is the purpose achieved? i have always thought writing a letter to someone was a way to express your feelings in a sincere way. Email came, the sincerity was not as great as before, but still, the message is still being sent over. and now blog took over email. if you were to blog 'I LOVE YOU' specifically to a person, what are you trying to show? telling the whole world you like that particular person and if by any chance if he or she were to read this, your message would be successfully conveyed? as the changes are made, the ability to reach out to the masses and the convenience is getting better and better. but the sincerity in communication is getting worse and worse. check in your emails, what do you see? out of 10 mails, 3 were your subscription newsletter, 4 were your junkmails, 2 were your friendster update, maybe the 1 left was a rare email from your friends, but in most cases, its just another 'give me 10k and you will inherit a few millions' email. i bet no one can argue that email is no longer a communication medium between friends.
MSN... a powerful tool that took over IRC. i couldn't argue too much with the invention of MSN, as i hardly used it. it might be a more effective tool in locating your friends, but it has far less efficiency in relaying messages imo. how many people have their status as 'away' or 'busy' forever, even right from the start they logged in? why bother to log on to MSN when you are not even interested in using it? MSN is connected automatically when it detects internet connection. even if the owner turns the function off, its only a click away from getting it up. MSN has mostly become a tool to tell people that you are online. in IRC, you could interact with people you don't know. like in #zhss, you could know more people in your school and maybe make new friends. but in MSN, i could see my list with 50% being 'away' or 'busy' for the whole duration. people are losing their ability to communicate face-to-face. that includes me. but i am trying my best to regain that long-lost ability. progress is great and i love the new me. but it takes 2 to make it happens. if i met someone who does not have the ability to do that, its only a matter of time i run out of ways to carry on the conversation.
i thought about alot of things before i slept yesterday. i recalled an incident which happened back in my secondary school times. i could remember it vaguely. i was sec 2 or 3 then, i couldn't really remember. there was once when i went for breakfast in school before assembly. the canteen was always quite empty in the morning. my friends should know that i am always late and never early for school, so it was a brand new experience for me to have breakfast in school that early. and because of that, i saw a girl whom i liked later on. she was having breakfast too. i sat a few seats away, munching on my breakfast and admiring her sweet appearance. from that day on, i went to the canteen for breakfast without fail. everyday i would see her in the canteen in the morning, either having her breakfast, or sitting there doing her homework i supposed. i guess it did not took her long to notice that i was 'stalking' her. despite that, she did not stop her habit of going to the canteen every morning. neither did i. after quite some time, i decided to find her on irc. asking around like a desperado, i managed to chat with her on irc. she was... attractive and friendly. not to forget to mention, playful too. at that time, to me, she was an angel that was sent to earth for a mission. what mission was that, i would not know of, but there is one thing i know. i have fallen for her at that time. i can still remember her mesmerising smile vaguely. we went on to be friends, but wasn't close enough to be anything more. in my memories, she knew that i liked her very much. but i wasn't brave enough to express my feelings for her and as time went on, we slowly forgot about each other. but, it has always been a nice encounter.
look into my eyes (ok, you can't really do that without me appearing before you), touch your heart, can this ever happen in the society like this now? i highly doubt so. this is one of the day where my meter of 'feeling down and down' is very high. no worries, this feeling will wear off in a matter of days...
just before i went to bed yesterday, i browsed through my email inbox after a thorough bath. i clicked on the link 'Last'. the first email i have in my inbox was 4 years back. 2002... how time flies. opening those emails one by one, memories flowed into my mind. 4 years back, sending emails was an 'in' thing. or rather, a way commonly used to express your feelings. its was the era of 'IRC' too. 'Internet Relay Chat'.
i could still remember the excitement when recieving an email at that time. almost everyday, there will be at least a new mail in the inbox. what did my friends sent me? or did my crush sent me an email? those were the thoughts. everyday after school, switching on the computer and connecting to 'IRC' was an indispensable routine. you never know who would be online and the suspense of figuring out who was online was always there. would my best pals be online, or better yet, my crush waiting in the chatroom? its full of possibilities and the suspense never runs out. you could talk with a bunch of peoples, or chose to open a new channel and ask a few friends in for a more private discussion. a double click on a name could bring you to a one-on-one chat for personal conversation.
time has changed. almost everything has changed, claiming to be following up to the ever-changing society. changes are presumably good, if not why the changes? but are they really good, or are they just some self-proclaimed 'good' changes that is widely recognised by everyone? everyday, changes are made in all aspects of life. the majority would blindly accept the changes and abandon the old ways, making them obsolete. there would not have been enough time for the majority to consider the usefulness and the purpose of the changes. this is what is called 'trend'. one person do it, 10 people followed blindly, another 100 were influenced and it goes on like a chain letter. people are being taught to adapt to changes readily. but did they not realise, changes should only be made for the better?
emails... does anyone use emails to express their feelings towards other anymore? i doubt so. from the early letter writing, to electronic mailing, to blog. when Email was introduced, letter writing was obsoleted. now, people have a new way of expressing themselves. blogs. but is it as effective as emails? NO. i can almost give a confident answer as fast as you can say 'BLOG'. yes, technologies allow us to communicate in a more convenient way. blog is a very efficient way to express your feelings to the masses. but, is the purpose achieved? i have always thought writing a letter to someone was a way to express your feelings in a sincere way. Email came, the sincerity was not as great as before, but still, the message is still being sent over. and now blog took over email. if you were to blog 'I LOVE YOU' specifically to a person, what are you trying to show? telling the whole world you like that particular person and if by any chance if he or she were to read this, your message would be successfully conveyed? as the changes are made, the ability to reach out to the masses and the convenience is getting better and better. but the sincerity in communication is getting worse and worse. check in your emails, what do you see? out of 10 mails, 3 were your subscription newsletter, 4 were your junkmails, 2 were your friendster update, maybe the 1 left was a rare email from your friends, but in most cases, its just another 'give me 10k and you will inherit a few millions' email. i bet no one can argue that email is no longer a communication medium between friends.
MSN... a powerful tool that took over IRC. i couldn't argue too much with the invention of MSN, as i hardly used it. it might be a more effective tool in locating your friends, but it has far less efficiency in relaying messages imo. how many people have their status as 'away' or 'busy' forever, even right from the start they logged in? why bother to log on to MSN when you are not even interested in using it? MSN is connected automatically when it detects internet connection. even if the owner turns the function off, its only a click away from getting it up. MSN has mostly become a tool to tell people that you are online. in IRC, you could interact with people you don't know. like in #zhss, you could know more people in your school and maybe make new friends. but in MSN, i could see my list with 50% being 'away' or 'busy' for the whole duration. people are losing their ability to communicate face-to-face. that includes me. but i am trying my best to regain that long-lost ability. progress is great and i love the new me. but it takes 2 to make it happens. if i met someone who does not have the ability to do that, its only a matter of time i run out of ways to carry on the conversation.
i thought about alot of things before i slept yesterday. i recalled an incident which happened back in my secondary school times. i could remember it vaguely. i was sec 2 or 3 then, i couldn't really remember. there was once when i went for breakfast in school before assembly. the canteen was always quite empty in the morning. my friends should know that i am always late and never early for school, so it was a brand new experience for me to have breakfast in school that early. and because of that, i saw a girl whom i liked later on. she was having breakfast too. i sat a few seats away, munching on my breakfast and admiring her sweet appearance. from that day on, i went to the canteen for breakfast without fail. everyday i would see her in the canteen in the morning, either having her breakfast, or sitting there doing her homework i supposed. i guess it did not took her long to notice that i was 'stalking' her. despite that, she did not stop her habit of going to the canteen every morning. neither did i. after quite some time, i decided to find her on irc. asking around like a desperado, i managed to chat with her on irc. she was... attractive and friendly. not to forget to mention, playful too. at that time, to me, she was an angel that was sent to earth for a mission. what mission was that, i would not know of, but there is one thing i know. i have fallen for her at that time. i can still remember her mesmerising smile vaguely. we went on to be friends, but wasn't close enough to be anything more. in my memories, she knew that i liked her very much. but i wasn't brave enough to express my feelings for her and as time went on, we slowly forgot about each other. but, it has always been a nice encounter.
look into my eyes (ok, you can't really do that without me appearing before you), touch your heart, can this ever happen in the society like this now? i highly doubt so. this is one of the day where my meter of 'feeling down and down' is very high. no worries, this feeling will wear off in a matter of days...
posted by -=]-snoopy-[=- at 1:16 PM
1 Comments:
actually msn not as gd as irc.... although it has grp chat option but.. seems messy to me if those ppl put a long long nick... irc has limited letters for a nick... and u cant put any icons in it... so seems neater... like u said... in irc... u can know more ppl... this is wat in msn cant be done...
i dont think email can be replaced by blog... since email is considered a more personal way to convey messages... for me... i still using it sometimes to communicate with frds... and i also wont publicize my feeling to a person... really not sincere.. haha...
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